I've gotten all the test scores back...
The good news first: I passed them all.
The not so good news: I did much worse than I thought...even on the ones I felt good about.
Of my five tests the highest score I got was an 8,8 out of 10. The lowest was 5,25 (a five is passing). The night after I found out about the 5,25 I actually dreamed about it all night. Obsessing? Maybe just a little. The next morning I woke up with a cold sore. :(
Despite the exam scores, I passed all my classes with good grades. I got notable in all but one, which was a sobresaliente. That's roughly equivalent to all B's and an A. So I can't be too disappointed, but it's frustrating to know that I could have done much better...quite possibly straight sobresaliente had I only done better on the exams. I've only got myself to blame...which really only makes things worse!
But it is true that this is just the first semester. Now I know what all this distance learning is about. I know what the exams are like and I know how to study (or how NOT to study, as the case may be). This coming semester I can juggle things better so as not to be so unprepared at the last min.
In any case, I'm taking this as an opportunity to overcome my perfectionism. I could have studied more and I could have gotten better grades, but at what price? Aside from studies, I am working and like to have time to spend with my friends, with Angelines and blogging to all of you! So would straight sobresaliente compensate for less of a social life, less time enjoying my wife and fewer blog posts?
Although, I say, "Not by a long shot," it's harder to actually walk the talk.
Settling for less than my best isn't something I'm used to, but unfortunately I believe it's a valuable lesson to learn. Sometimes the trade-offs just aren't worth it; and running myself ragged to do it effects more than just me and my own mental/physical health.